Let me just start off by saying this post will not be what you think... unless it's exactly what you think, in which case I'm actually super basic but can I still get an A for effort? My name is Kristina and I am a 30 year old Jesus loving Christian who doesn’t exactly fit into the box of what a 'Christian' is supposed to be like.
For one, my theology emphasizes what I like to call “fun Jesus”. I’ll give you an example. Jesus’ first miracle was turning water into wine and not just like a glass. We’re talking gallons. Therefore, I also decide to forego water and opt for wine when the option presents itself. He gets me.
Okay so now that we’ve gotten that out of the way, let me just say that I am truly a follower of Jesus and have spent a lot of time studying the bible, reading books, and listening to every sermon or worship set I could get my hands on because I was so desperate to know this person I hear about in church.
My faith has been rocked just like most of you.
I've had ups and downs, the worst being my mothers loss to brain cancer, and the most recent being a nervous breakdown and anxiety attacks I could not seem to control. I know what it's like to be told “just stick to Jesus” yet finding I had no idea what that actually meant. I've struggled with shame and countless internal accusations playing in my head to the point that I couldn't get myself to leave the house. I've felt so confused about what God is doing in my life that I've actually thrown my bible into the beach (the ocean is #blessed).
I don’t have all the answers, I'm very much imperfect. But I've learned without a shadow of a doubt that there is always hope, like really. To me, this is the gospel. It is more than words on a page. It's a relationship learned and experienced uniquely by each person. If there is one thing I’ve learned time and time again, it is that hope is far more than a feeling.
This blog is not for those who are looking for the story to be perfect.
This is for the storytellers and the lovers of a great plot because I think the most epic stories are the ones where the mess is actually something beautiful.
Everything I learned about Jesus was shaken when I had to make the decision that He is still good even in the midst of tragedy. He is still good when your boyfriend breaks up with you. He is still good when you lose your job. He is still good when you lose it all. Ultimately, He is good.
Okay, enough with being deep. Here's the deal. We want to share and hear your stories about living in today’s faith based culture because your story is valuable. The faith section is for those stories about the conversations we have with God. It is those accounts of overcoming obstacles and facing fear that make the reader say “if they can still stand, then so can I’.
We want to read those relationship stories that are less about being perfect and more about grace...side note, the ones that may not have been everlasting always serve a bigger purpose if we allow it. We want to hear it all. I once went on a date to church that was dramatic but ended up being a pivotal moment in my life. This blog may not even exist had that date not happened. Read about it here.
Lastly, we definitely want those raw stories about topics we relate to but can become a bit uncomfortable - like mental health. In this day and age, we have all sorts of interesting facets to our dating culture. Once I was almost engaged after 3 months of dating because we convinced ourselves this was the right thing to do. I mean, can we talk about this please? Chivalry is not dead guys…I think.